April, Where Are You Taking Me?

2012 has been extraordinary. In December I went to Maine to spend the Holidays with the kids. No sooner was I home when I was invited to fly out to Denver to celebrate Laura's birthday. A few weeks into February I was invited to visit Barb and Tom in Tennessee, and since there was plenty of reasons to say yes, I did. Then in March I arranged a visit to the Marriott Ranch in Virginia.  It was a complimentary stay, including a two hour trail ride in the foot hills of the Blue Ridge Mountains.  Donna joined me and we worked out the last details of a horse based retreat called Quiet Road to be held at the ranch.

Check it out here.

  

Now it is April, and I am certain that I will be invited to some place outside of Pennsylvania for a day or two.  And I don't think it will be New Jersey.  But I am not ruling it out completely.

Here are my questions... besides, "April, where are you taking me?". Could life really be about intentions?  Could I possibly have some subconscious desire that is asking the Universe to treat me to such generous and sentimental holidays?  How is it that I could be so fortunate?  What can I do to reciprocate?  Who is steering this vessel?  There is a bubbling up of joyful anticipation for what is coming my way.  And it isn't a person, a job or a new car... it's awareness.  It can't be denied.  Look at the trees that are bursting and listen to the rain that is falling.  It's constant, effortless and flowing through everything.

It really doesn't matter if I get an invite to fly to Austin or take a road trip to Nova Scotia at some point this month.  What matters is that I continue to appreciate the bubbling joy, stay aware of the splendor of nature and be patient. 

A good friend advised me the other day.  He said, "Amy, just remember, all those feelings, all that energy, all that power, that is all coming from you.  That is coming from inside you."  

It feels like love.  And my intention is to share that love.  Appreciate that love and stay wrapped up in that love.  And maybe, that is where April will take me.

Happy Trails.

Amy

Pretend You Care

The fellow in middle is Arvil and
one of the others is Eric.

You might know that right now I don't have a man in my life.  That means a boyfriend, lover, significant other, husband or sweetheart.  And you might agree that there is nothing wrong with that.  There are a few that might go as far as to say... "Lucky You".  Well what you might not know is I have two pretend boyfriends.  Eric & Arvil.  They are real men, but pretend boyfriends.  I started thinking about three years ago that just the idea that someone cares about me is all I really want.  So I asked Arvil if he'd just act like he cared.  He didn't exactly say no, so I took it as an affirmative.  I think I ended up married this way once too.  Then when I was on the telephone with Eric, whom I have never met (he is a friend of Arvil's and we bonded over a common concern for the big Latvian knucklehead) I asked him if he would be interested in being my pretend boyfriend.  I said, "all you have to do is call me once in a while and pretend you care".  He was in.

So every once in a while I will get a call from Arvil or Eric and they say sweet things like, "How've you been", "Man, I miss you" and "Babe, it's been too long".  My heart rate and blood pressure do all the things they would do if they were real boyfriends, so there is a benefit without the... without the .. hum, what is it I am missing?

Well, I will tell you what I am missing.  A big old smile, a hug and an I Love You.  That is just something that I would love to get every morning and every evening.  What do you think you'd miss the most if your sweetheart wasn't coming home anymore?  And if you don't have a sweetheart, would you settle for a pretend one?  

Tomorrow, I suppose I'll get up, smile, give myself a hug and remind myself that I Love You.  

Sweet Dreams Sweet Hearts.  I Love You Too.  Amy